yesterday was the last day ..she called like she care what is happing to me.. she is really pitying me..fuck it.... i cant take this anymore I am loosing my mind…terrible 2 weeks again! same story; she calls than I start to dreaming about her again .. couldn't think and do anything 2 weeks., and no aikido more than 2 weeks. this is just stupid. doesn't matter, what i do; begging or bleeding. noting did change and not going to change. and her ignorance and her acting's make me sick… i wish i can go back in time and erase her from my life. What kind of idiot i am ????