Dream Antimatter
Thu, 17 Dec 2009 12:19:19 GMT
Posted by mfalac
Immersed in light, broken in flight,
Here comes that scene again,
Not another sleepless night.
Scripted yet stuck on every line,
Upon my face a look of pure surprise,
I thought I'd be fighting fire.
How it's changed from my dream,
Did I stray from the path laid out for me?
How it's changed,
Did I fail in some way?
Easy to plot a course divine,
A simple graph cant cover ever line,
and I dont see what I dont know.
Some truths are harder to perceive,
The color has been drained now from my eyes,
Staring into endless time...
Neptun
Sun, 20 Dec 2009 06:42:30 GMT
Posted by mfalac
yesterday was the last day ..she called like she care what is happing to me.. she is really pitying me..fuck it.... i cant take this anymore I am loosing my mind…terrible 2 weeks again! same story; she calls than I start to dreaming about her again .. couldn't think and do anything 2 weeks., and no aikido more than 2 weeks. this is just stupid. doesn't matter, what i do; begging or bleeding. noting did change and not going to change. and her ignorance and her acting's make me sick… i wish i can go back in time and erase her from my life. What kind of idiot i am ????
search and 2010
Fri, 01 Jan 2010 05:38:41 GMT
Posted by mfalac
finaly added search! bouu it is not my search engine it is google :( today is the first day of the 2010 and feel diffrent, unusual relax, feel like something going to happen (in a good way), yesterday i talk to neptun again, whtever i do im not able to control my anger to her. I said lots of mean words again for no reason, im not just hurting her also i am hurting my self... This year im going to learn to control my self and my anger ... i hope this year will be better than 2009.. damn i hated 2009
army
Thu, 10 Jun 2010 03:58:38 GMT
Posted by mfalac
now i am ın dogubeyazıt / agrı doıng my army thıngi :) ıf you want to contact me you can fınd me ın face book look mfalac not mehmet fatıh alac :D love you all